ritualravings' · Journal

My belief that the world is inhabited by Gail Wynands, just waiting to shed of their cloaks and metamorphize into Roarks uninhibitedly grows when I see a track like "Into Dust" figuring in, of all places, The O.C. Despite churning out unabashed amounts of crap in the name of episodes weak after another, it turns out that the script writers spring this torture on us viewers for their own condescending pleasure. Atleast this theory appeals more than the other alternative it offers.

When I was just past the point where I could be labelled an infant, I made my first career decision. With the kind of conviction which could only be born out of a complete lack of inhibition, I decided I wanted to be an actress. This was, however, the result of a huge misunderstanding between me and the world with it's concept of playback singing and lip-synchers. I, of course, thought that the actors did all the singing themselves and this was my primary motivation towards such a deliberation.
Well, even after I grew up, when I decided to be a teacher, I remember thinking that one of the perks would be the shorter working hours which would help me pursue a career in music. All of my career dreams featured singing directly or indirectly, with the career as something involving some music skills or a means to get me there. Extreme attempts have even led to my having considered voice dubbing, radio jockeying as strong contenders.
There was one extremely long-winded approach too and this one, not as totally secured in childish imagination as i might wish to claim. It was,in fact, when I was sixteen, that I decided to become a journalist who would get to interview all the famous personaliites and how a chance wait in A.R.Rahman's office would result in his hearing my brilliant humming of some song( back then, there was some energy expended in deciding the song that would mark this thrilling moment). The ones to which my imagination failed to draw any kind of connection with music were all made part-time jobs with my other musical career as the guiding star.
Now, of course,given the null factor in my career skills, I essentially return to a decision made when innocence ruled my life
I do pay a million thanks to the Indian film industry where singers can just sing, without the hassles of having to dance or star in music videos. Apart from the absolute terror that such a curtailment would let loose on the quality of singing, acting and dancing, the real reason for my gratitude is that I can still let some hope stay afloat.